I've noticed the winds of change blowing in blogger world for some of my friends. Several have reached the one year mark for their LID's. Next month will be nine months down for me. I've seen more of an acceptance with this wait. A kind of peace with it. Not so much stress and sadness. This is a good thing. I am very much an optimist. I've always tried to view this wait as positively as I can. I see it as a blessing in many ways. I know that my baby IS on her way. I know that my life will drastically change when she gets here. And I'll welcome this new lifestyle.
But in knowing that my complete sense of freedom is coming to an end, I've learned to appreciate it so much more. Right now I can still be spontaneous and crazy. I can go away for the weekend at the drop of a hat without worrying about babysitters or if my daughter will be able to handle the trip. I can enjoy the quiet because pretty soon I won't have much. I can sleep late and take long, leisurely bubble baths because pretty soon I'll be sleep deprived and will no longer pee alone..... ever again. I can spend time with my girlfriends and have a few cocktails. And if we're still having good conversation at midnight, I can stay until 4am and finish it if I want to. I can go to the grocery store or to get my nails done with no prior planning, packing a diaper bag, or awareness of time management to accomodate nap or poop schedules. I can shop for hours without having to drag a giant stroller through the aisles. Or deal with a little one getting fussy, having a meltdown, pulling clothes off the rack, or constantly whining about being bored. I can eat cake for breakfast, lunch and dinner if I want because I don't have to worry yet about fixing a well balanced meal or setting a good example. I've found myself saying yes to a lot more invitations because soon someone else will manage my time and my answer will be "Well, let me see how Mia feels."
Of course, we'll welcome our children and the changes to our lives that they'll bring. We'll be content in our new sense of normal. We'll be happy in our sleep deprivation, showering with bath tub toys, cheerios on the back seat floorboard, sippy cups in the sink, and snot on our shirts. We've all waited a long time for this. But to truly appreciate this part of our lives, we must also appreciate the freedom that came before it. Because soon it will be gone. And once it's gone.... it's gone forever. So don't wish it away. For all of my childless friends who are enduring this wait with me......please enjoy your time! Relish in your freedom and celebrate it!