Friday, April 01, 2011

Cut Off Is June 15th!

It's official. People are getting referral calls today and the CCAA has changed the box already.

That means...
without a doubt...
I am
IN THIS BATCH!

Unfortunately, because of how my agency does things I won't get my call until Weds or Thurs next week. If I'm really lucky and they translate quickly, I might get a call late Tuesday evening. There aren't many families left in my LID group so I'm really hoping they finish early and my call comes Tuesday.

But right now, I'm glad my call isn't coming until next week. This weekend is gonna be quite the emotional rollercoaster as it is. The viewing for my grandmother starts soon and we'll bury her tomorrow morning. I need to get my emotions past that before I can fully engage with the referral news.

The few times I've thought about the referral today the butterflies immediately start and I can feel the tears about to flow. So I've had to push it aside. I need some closure from the sadness before I can fully open up to the joy of what next week will bring.

I expect a little emotional breakdown on Sunday when I get some down time and allow it all to wash over me. Then I'll pick myself up and wait for my life to change.

Because the most exciting thing that's ever happened in my life is coming. And I've waited a long time for that dream to come true!

26 comments:

Karmen and Greg said...

Wow -- what a rollercoaster of emotions you must have ... I'm sorry your Grandmother won't be here to share your joy -- but I have a feeling she's celebrating with you! Congratulations ... I'll check back to see those pictures!

Karmen
www.babybernacchi.com

Lisa~~ said...

Oh my what an emotional weekend you will have. Saying good bye and a new hello. Congrats that your time is here and I can't wait to see YOUR DAUGHTER!!

Julie said...

I am very sorry about your Grandma and wish you peace with her passing.

When I saw the cut off of the 15th I immediately thought of you and Mia, and that very soon you will see her face!!! Enjoy this and take in every moment!

~Kristen said...

I still just can't believe it's finally happening... speechless!!!

myminivanrocks said...

Oh my gosh, what and emotional time for you! I'm sorry about your grandma, but so excited for you that you will be seeing Mia's face soon!

Briana's Mom said...

I'm so sorry about the loss of your grandma. Getting your referral and losing your grandmother at the same time is so bittersweet. Just know that she is looking over you on your journey to bring home your daughter.

Doug and I had just started to trying to start a family when my grandfather passed suddenly of a heart attack in 2002. I was so close to him. It broke my heart that I never got a chance to tell him that we wanted to have kids. Deep down, I think he had a hand in bringing Bri and me together. :D

Sharie said...

So sorry for your loss - what a bittersweet weekend. Your grandmother will be with you every step of the way as you continue your journey to Mia - and then WITH Mia.

Kim said...

WHOOOHOOOOOO...
I am crying right now ... I am sooo happy for you ..
Big hugs to you for what you are about to go through this weekend..
I know how you feel..
HUGZ>.

Wendy said...

You've made it!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!

Catherine said...

Dreams really do come true and your dream is on her way from China!!

Praying for you tomorrow friend as you say goodbye to your Grandmother. ((hugs))

belinda said...

So happy for you! I've read your blog for YEARS....and totally enjoy it!

Thinking of you tomorrow!

Belinda

Lynne said...

So excited for you! (And {hugs} on the loss of your grandmother.)

Lindsay said...

What a bittesweet time this must be. I can't imagine what you must be feeling go thru both your Grandmother's loss and your daughter's arrival at the same time.

However I am just so thrilled for you - to the point of nearly crying - that finally you will be seeing Mia's face at last.

2china4S said...

I am sorry about the loss of your grandmother. My grandparents raised me and I believe that they were my daughter's guardian angels while she waited for us. That is a big deal because I am the biggest cynic and smart a** in the world. I felt their presence in China, and I am sure your grandmother is watching over you and Mia. Like the others, I can't wait to see your daughter.

Alyson and Ford said...

So happy for you! referral time is such a happy time! You will always remember your grandmother every time you think of this date. Enjoy the family love during this difficult but joyous time!

Alyzabeth's Mommy

Sarah's proud Mama said...

I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your Grandma. Mine died a year ago on 3/29 and it still doesn't seem real. I pray for comfort for you and your family.

I'm also so happy for you that you will finally see your daughter's face for the first time in just a few days. How wonderful. I'm so looking forward to following your journey.
Blessings,
Robin

Wendy said...

I am literally jumping up and down for you! You have just entered a very dreamy part of your life... enjoy it and take lots of pictures and video because it's gonna be blurry later.

My condelences on your loss. I am still sad that my dear grandmother never got to meet our little Emerson but I know her spirit is with us every step of the way.

WoooooHoooooo!

C said...

Waiting a long time doesn't even begin to cover how long you have waited. I admire your attitude this entire wait. Congrats again!
I am also very sorry about your grandmother.

Shannon said...

Oh my goodness! Oh my goodness! =)
Hugs to you, friend.

kitchu said...

oh i just want to squeeze you tight. in part, to comfort you and then, to celebrate with you.

big hugs krista. you have waited so long for this day and it has been SUCH an honor to share this long road with you.

xoxo.

Donna -N- Andrew said...

What an emotional rollercoaster you are on. Thinking of you~ Hang in there~ your almost there!
Donna

Carol and Taylor said...

Congrats on your referral, and condolences re your grandma.

Can't wait to follow your jounrney.

Kind regards from Miami,

Carol and Taylor

Gail said...

One day at a time. You are going through a huge emotional time right now.
I am again so very sorry about your loss but also so extremely happy that your wait is FINALLY coming to an end and you will soon see Mia's face!

K said...

I never imagined in a million years that I'd be sitting here in Guangzhou reading this post!!!

Your grandmother can now look after your little girl until you can go get her.

A huge congratulations to you and I will be waiting to see her gorgeous face when you post it!

Tonya said...

Congrats on being in this "batch". I found your website thru the RQ site. I'm a single mommy too!! I have 2 precious girls from Taiwan. I adopted Janie in 2009 and then in 2010 her birth mother had another baby girl and hoped the sisters could be together....so I traveled again and now have these precious girls together!!

I will keep you in my prayers. Can't wait to follow the remainder of your journey!

Dan and Karen said...

Sending you hugs as you say goodbye and hello all in a very short time span. Grief and joy together can be so hard to process.

I'm so happy for you with your upcoming referral and so very sorry for your loss as well.

Karen