Monday, December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas



This is the second holiday season spent without my daughter. But more depressing is there will most likely be yet another after this one. It's difficult for others to understand how it's possible to miss a child so much... who only exists in your heart. The holidays are rough for those of us still waiting. Especially those whose homes are quiet on Christmas morning. To distract myself a little, I'll be spending the night at my sister's house. It'll be nice to wake up with the kids and watch them open their presents.

But I'll still think about my Mia. As I do every day. And I'll dream about the Christmas morning when my house won't be quiet anymore.

This song was written by a member of the band Third Day while he was waiting to bring his own daughter home from China. This video of his family and their trip to China is shown at concerts during the song. I'm borrowing it as my message to my daughter.

I can't wait until the day that I can finally hold you in my arms. Until then... I'll keep carrying you in my heart. I love you, Mia. Merry Christmas from Mommy.

And Merry Christmas to all of you out there.

29 comments:

Rhonda said...

Merry Christmas, K.

i-Con said...

Ahh...my friend....thanks for inducing the first sobbing episode of the 2007 holiday.

Hugs and Merry Christmas with the family...I know what you mean about the quiet. I'm doing the holiday at my house this year (family is staying) so I'm off the 'quiet
hook' this time.

TBG Happenings said...

Merry Christmas my friend....wiping away tears for you and for you Mia.

Love and hugs from all of us.

Carla said...

I know I don't say it enough, but my heart aches for you, Kris. I'm sorry that this wait has stretched into what feels like oblivion. I hope that you are able to enjoy your holiday, even if just a little, with our family.

Daniella said...

Merry Christmas. Nothing to say about this wait - it just stinks. Enjoy your sister's noisy house!

Mom2Boober-Do said...

You too Special K. I too can't wait to see your little Mia at last home, with her Mommy. Love you tons.

crazylady said...

some presents take a long time to wrap

I'm sure they'll poke holes in the box while you wait though.

One fine crisp Xmas morn, you will not even remember this day, because your new life will have erased it. I speak truth.

Stephe said...

I wanted to stop by and wish you Merry Christmas and I hope the New Year has lots of great things in store for you! Happy Holidays! Stephe

Noemi said...

Merry Christmas K. I too can't wait to see Mia in your arms. Lots of hugs!

Made in China said...

Wishing you a very Merry Christmas. I have been in your shoes, you will get through this and when you are finally with your daughter - you will appreciate every moment.

Remember to try and live in the moment. You will never get this Christmas back so vow to make it special for yourself and those around you.

Norma said...

It is a little different for me this year since I have my daughter's picture but I sure know what you mean. I love that song!

Donna said...

I cried a hundred tears in your honor (and my other waiting friends) while watching this precious video. I hope time flies and you get that little girl in your arms sooner than you dare to hope.

Merry Christmas

Donna

Donna & Andrew said...

Merry Christmas.

Shannon said...

Merry Christmas Krista! One day Mia will know how much you've loved her from the time she was just a little spirit in your heart.

Sandra said...

Merry Christmas, friend....

Doris & Dan said...

Feeling the same...hugs.

Happy, happy to you and yours!

Keep smilin!

Janet said...

Merry Christmas to you too! I hope it's a good one....

and that song ALWAYS makes me tear up!

Johnny said...

Merry Christmas.

Traci said...

Wow, thanks Krista. A good cry from the beginning. I can NOT WAIT until I can celebrate Miss Mia's homecoming. I cried for you today, and I will celebrate with you one day in the future. I hope that it will be okay for me to be lurking at the Airport...I look forward to it.

Merry Christmas!

Traci

Lisa, Doug & Briana said...

It makes me so sad that Mia is not home with you - especially at Christmas. Thinking of you. Hugs...

JoAnn in NJ said...

Merry Christmas Special K.
I know exactly what you mean about a house "too quiet"

Soon, the quiet of Christmas morning will be a distant memory, replaced with the giggles and tossing of cute outfits on the floor in search of more Dora the Explorer toys :)

We all can't wait for Mia too!

Shannon said...

Always in our hearts. Merry Christmas.

Isabella's Mommy & Daddy said...

Merry Christmas girly...

wzgirl said...

Ok. So, you made me cry. What a song. What a year it has been. And, yes, what a holiday.

XO

redmaryjanes said...

Oh, what a bittersweet post. I do so hope that you have your little Mia next year. I do believe it is harder for people who don't have children at home. And I do understand completely how you can love a child who isn't home yet.

Debbie, Kirk and Olivia said...

Oh Krista,

Nobody understands the wait unless they have been there done that. I remember so much longing and following every ounce of info on the net while waiting. This year we finally made it, its hard to believe but its the best feeling in the world. I'm not even going to say you'll forget all the waiting because that's not what you need to hear right now. Your heart is aching for a good reason. You deserve to feel your pain, and I wish Olivia was there to give you a big squishy hug.

Hang in hun,
Deb
(Olivia's lucky mom)

Headmeister said...

Colleen & Stacy played this at my house when they were here for my birthday and I had to leave the room because I don't do the ugly cry in front of others... Merry Christmas to you buddy...

Princess Diaries said...

My heart aches with you. Being separated from a loved one is devastating.

aggies said...

I could not have said it better.. I borrowed that from you.. Check out my blog..I feel your pain exactly..

Traci
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