Friday, November 13, 2009

Superstitious?

What was I thinking to let the doctor schedule this surgery for Friday the 13th? Don't they know how bad my luck has been when it comes to this kind of thing?! I really don't need any added superstitions.

I have to be at the hospital in 6 hours. So why am I still on the computer? One word.... denial! I can say "I'm having surgery" all I want. Because they're just words falling outta my mouth. There's no meaning behind them as far as I'm concerned. Because I refuse to let my head process what those words signify. I started to a little bit yesterday when I was discussing things with my Lieutenant. And I started to hyperventilate a little. That PTSD just has a mind of it's own and pops up at the most inconvenient times. Yeah... it wasn't good. So I decided to go back to my happy, disconnected place until I absolutely have to face things. Which will be in about 6 hours! Oh crap... make that 5 hours and 50 minutes. But it's okay. I can handle it. I have valium. LOL!

So please say a few prayers for me that all goes well. And that I don't freak out too bad. It's just a minor little outpatient thing to fix some torn cartilage in my knee. I don't think the doctor can kill me doing that, right? (insert nervous laugh here)

14 comments:

delmy said...

Hey Krista, Got your SOS for prayers you've got mine! Just keep thinking how much easier your trip to China will be when you have a healthy knee juggling cases and Mia. i've been following your blog whenever I can...life is wild with 3 especially with the virtual twins age 8 and 9 who bounce back and forth between best buds and arch enemies every 5 minutes LOL Anyway my first China doll turned 14 last month and I still remember the details of that trip so vividly it s scary. Can't say I remember many of the obstacles leading up to it anymore...just like childbirth I guess. Anyway stay calm, take all the drugs they offer and relax...easy to say I know but I am a nurse after all, consider it a nursing order. Take care. God Bless. MaryB

Michelle said...

Totally praying that all goes well and for a calm mental state for you. I hope the Valium does it's job. Take two! :)

Rhonda said...

Sending good, healing thoughts your way.

paragon2pieces said...

Hope it goes well :)

Carla said...

All will be well, although yes, you are a nut for letting them schedule it on Friday the 13th. Then again, since your birthday falls on on Friday some years, I guess you're used to the stigma. Good luck this morning. Hope you heal quickly.

Suzie said...

Thinking of you and praying that all goes well.

I did think it was crazy that you scheduled for this date in light of what happened in the past but I have no doubt that you will be ok and we will meeting for drinks sometime in the future!

Laura said...

Hoping that all goes well! Valium will make it all better! Will be thinking of you.

Kayce said...

You will be in my prayers all day. Many hugs!!

3D said...

Sending you positive, easy knees-ey vibe and prayers.

Good luck and keep us posted!

Keep smilin!

Lindsay said...

Praying you find calm and inner strength, and have a quick and smooth recovery.

H said...

Krista,
Just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you and praying that all goes well today.

Heather

Sarah in MT said...

I'm wishing you a pain-free, speedy recovery. And remember it's not necessary to be a hero - accept help if you need it!

a Tonggu Momma said...

I said a prayer! Now I'm back to find out how it went. Let us know how you are as soon as you are able. (((hugs)))

k1 said...

Hope the surgery was successful and that you are healing already.