Unexpected Friendship

As of tomorrow my dossier has been sitting on a shelf in China for exactly one year. I'm happy to have one year behind me. But when I started this journey, I thought I'd be seeing my daughter's face at about this time. Or at least within the next six months. Unfortunately, I'll be waiting at least another year for that. Most likely longer though. The reality of that has hit me kind of hard this week. I know you all may find it hard to believe that Miss Sunshiney Pants who always believes the glass is half full and nauseates people with her optimism is a little depressed. But she is. At least she was. But not after she found these sitting on her front porch! (Okay...enough talking about myself in the third person. That's getting annoying, isn't it? LOL!)

Connie is my go-to woman. When I need to vent, whine, complain, bitch, cry, be sad and depressed, she's the one I go to most often. I don't like to be that kind of person so I try to limit it as much as I can. But everybody needs somebody that you can be real with and somebody who just gets it. I've been lucky enough to find a few of those somebody's along the way.

After listening to the depressed me this week, she took it upon herself to cheer me up. She sent these beautiful flowers. They were just what the doctor ordered. Or in this case, what the midwife ordered. (Man I crack myself up.) A much needed kick in the butt to turn that frown upside down and get on with it. Thank you so much Connie! You really made my day. What you wrote on the card was so true. I just need to focus on that. Our dreams will come true. We just have to be patient.

When I started out on this journey, I was alone. I had the support of my family and a few close friends who I knew would help me raise this beautiful little baby. Because I believe it really does take a village to raise a child. But I still took the first steps alone. It was hard. And a little scary.

But then I started this blog. I never could've imagined the connections I would make because of it. The friendships that I've made that I know will last a lifetime. Some that I may never meet in real life but whose lives I've become emotionally invested in as we ride this rollercoaster together. And I know now that I'm not alone in this. My daughter will be raised alongside other little girls adopted from China. I never saw that one coming either. But I'm so grateful for it. There are so many amazing people out here in this same slow boat to China with me. You know what I'm feeling and you understand. I could not survive this wait without you. And for that...I am truly blessed.